Nov 12, 2010

Something I wrote a while ago in my journal. Someone told me that I should stop being such a nice guy. Being that way puts me as a liabilty to myself and others around me. So I guess this is me answering the question can I be a black man and be nice and still be considered a man? or am I still a threat?



They say be strong. Defend yourself and protect what is yours.
And then when you do and you get angry. You get shunned and looked at wrong. You know that look that says " Oh there goes another angry black man." Or it's "Why can't there race act right? Why do they have to be so angry?" But, when you don't get angry and you turn the other cheek it's like the world comes at you and pushes every button to make you angry like a wild lion in a cage being poked with a stick. So, from there you only have two choices be the boogieman they want you to be or roll over and be docile. I just want to have some inner peace of mind. And if at all possible have a place I can be at peace with the world. It's my belief that the media portrays us in this terrible light as such to make all other races especially rich white people that all black men. Even ones not from America are something to be feared. To be scared of anything besides God is a insult to God it's self. So why do people go toward this irrational thought process. Out of comfort maybe i don't know. Nightly news has just become a stigma to feed this fear and it only gets worse everyday. With the news it seems like there is always something to be afraid of. And if your not afraid something then you are the one that others should fear. I'm losing it. I'm not a threat, not a terror to you and yours, and certainly not a black superman Jesus figure. I'm just a man. An ordinary with weakness and strengths jsu like any other. I'm strong of mind and of will. But, right now at this moment. I'm just tired.

Your opinions are welcome.